chen is just chem
a maths is just a maths
school is just school

that's what i said
and it was quoted back at me

well.
it's not just something when they're all messed up together
old and new emotions clash
it seems like 2, 3 times the mess

In the beginning
I tried to warn you
you play with fire
it's gonna burn you.

"a wax doll melting in its own heat."

at least i'm somewhat ready for lit.

i really don't know what to do during the two marking days
becuase then i wouldn't know what to do
i would have been so used to working
and then.
exams over. there's nothing to do
and i'm so lost.

that's queer isn't it?
now i want to stop caring. i want to just relax
and then after the exams i predict that i will go crazy becuase there's nothing to do
i'm so full of contradition.

and crap.


i want to go out.
but where?
i want to do somthing so that i won't go crazy
but what?

i just don't want to sit at home and stone
i'll go crazy i tell you
i will

so if exams don't kill me
the two marking days will


my sore throat's getting worse
i haven't drank water since this morning
well. i want to fall really sick by sunday anyway.


-
i want to draw now

now? draw what? going to waste you time on another piece of paper that's going to be blank at the end? you're wasting precious time

but i can't study

well, that's too bad for you.