caro.
i'm sorry.
i just... don't feel well
mentally and physically i guess
and i like to finish entire pieces of things instead of just scribbles
and i can't exactly scribble if i can't think of what to draw now can i?
and i did believe it. at that point of time
and then... things change.
but i still somewhat believed it
and it was written down in ink. there was no way i could have changed it now could i?
no liquid paper anyways.

and neverminds about the church thing lah
it's just... idon'tknow

i'm sorry
but thanks for today
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I think i'm falling sicker.
i came home. and just fell asleep
woke up only when my dad came home
which was like... 5-6
i slept for 2-3 hours
i wasted 2-3 hours
i think i shall really go and try coffee

I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.
I still feel like sleeping
i could sleep now and wake up early tomorrow morning
but if i can't sleep then i would have wasted precious time trying to sleep

i feel so full of crap

wells.
i don't know what to do
i can't study
my forehead keeps on feeling like it's going to burn up
and then i feel that anytime now. i'll be covered in cold sweat

tomorrow's thursday
there's PE
I can just feel what i'm going to do
but can i finish it?
who cares?

and badminton.
i back is almost fine again.
i don't want to have to deal with backache again.
it's annoying

and lit.
die lah.

chinese should just go die.
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I want something
but i really don't know what is it that i want.

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Your life you never know
mixed up emotions
feelings gone cold
you really don't know

thoughts run wild
complications never mild
everything's a bloody mess
the situation you can't assess

the problems you have no control
the answers you never know
the bird's eye view you don't have
to the right options you're deaf

when things arise
things too large in size
you come way lost
and everything has a cost

trying to tread carefully
but you never know everything fully
and seriously
do you even know yourself truly?

trying so hard
but what have you accomplished thus far?
but are you really trying?
to yourself you're lying

questions that are a piece of cake
screwed up because of a careless mistake
how many of those have you made in your life?
they're always there, this constant strife

stop wishing to go back
you're making yourself a wreak
stop wishing
on stars that are really falling

you know you'll get through it
you know the end you'll meet
but the end
how's it going to end?

you're no seer
but it's so clear
and it won't be queer
if it happened again like last year

you curse
expecting the worse
but regrets come too late
that's what they always say

words form night and day
"are you okay?"
you mumble "yes"
that's the answer you think is best.