A maths is the most fun subject ever isn't it?

i wasted the whole of yesterday
emotions kept getting in the way
sigh.


i say,
if i could murder emotions
i would do so to vent all my frustrations

but frustration is an emotion


i stayed up until 2:32 and copied lit quotes
all over the front and back of my science pad
it's a huge mess i say

they're not going to help though
cause i only copied the quotes that appealed to me

wheeeeeee

i'm going to fail lit

and a maths.

log is so fun.
my dad makes it sound even more fun.
his explainations make so much sense.

it's confusing the hell outta me.
along with everything else

a crash course
the next few days will be
simply because you're trying to fly
without being able to see

how many times can you fall?
how many times can you keep on trying?
how many times are you going to keep on doing?
it's a head first dive off a cliff and into the ground.

but you're up and flying
flown too near the sun and now you're falling
wings burnt and melted
did you ever believe they would have lasted?

i'm confused
i'm scared
i'm screwed

life rocks i say.

i haven't been to my church for a month
time sure flies
i realise that i missed VBS tracting
i forgot
and elda's birthday.

i suppose i'm suppose to care
i suppose
i suppose
i suppose

but i don't.

i'm guilty.

i really don't feel like caring about anything anymore
but that's an attempted disaster.

i wrote 3 1/2 pages of words last night
just looking at it makes me dizzy
there's seriously a lot of words
but writing out and reading it didn't help at all

i ate a panadol
it didn't help at all either

i'll just have to wait for time to dilute the emotions.
and then i swear that this will never happen again

you said that before. so many times.