silence mounting. screeching. watching. nothing.
fear escalating. pressure rising. falling. sighing.
thoughts arising. failing. down. why? what?
messing. missing. what to do. confusing.
holding. dropping. letting go. still holding.
falling away. turning. running. stopping.
reading. watching. grabbing. missing.
reaching. hand dropping. turning. walking.
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I need to clean my room again.

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Chris-
well. you're welcome here I guess(:
but nowadays i'm not in the best of moods
you might not like it. so yeah.
and that. just doesn't work. for me
annoying? i know. hahas. it's just tha way it is.

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Instinctive reactions. Words fallen out. Empty. Meaningless. What to say really?
Right or wrong. Consequences. Responsibilities. Burn them. Keep them. Deal with it.
Watching you. Seeing nothing. Walking. Walking. Walking. No one.
You said this and that. Do I believe? Yes. No. Yes. No. Don’t know.
The past. Belongs to the past. The present to the present. The future?
Memories. Kept or thrown? Forgotten. Buried. Long gone. Gone.
Nothing. Helloes. Goodbyes. What’s the point?
Holding reading. Nothing. Empty. Fearing. Nothing.
Lies. Fear. Disappointment. Hurt. Scars. Wounds.
Horses. Running. Free. Canter. Gallop. Away. Away. Away.
Flying. Birds. Ravens. Crows. Dying. Fading. Faded. Gone. Death. Goodbye.
Holding. Crying. Hurting. Trying. Pulling. Putting. Apart. Together.
Nowhere. Crossroads. Wrong. Right. Consequences. So many.
Unfaltering. Tripping. Falling. Scars. Scabs. Fibrin. Mesh. Mess. Healing. Scars.
Sun. life. Burning. Time. Wings. Melted. Wax. Melted. Falling. Dying. Drowning. Ripping.
Ripples. Fading. Fading. Water. Fire. Together. Wine. Haha. So silly.
Pages. Burning. Forgetting. Forgetting. Forgetting. Still caring. Still caring. Still caring. Why?
Stop caring stop caring stop caring. No use. Meant to be. Not meant to be. Out of control.
Reckless. Jumping. Over edges. Up. Down. Falling. Down. Into? Towards?
Hope. Innocence. Dreams. Imagination. Past. Gone. Present. Slipping. Future. Unsure.
Seeing. Different. Key. Lock. Don't fit. Never did. All disillusions. Laughing. Walking. Pretending.
Familiarity. To unfamiliarity. Unfamiliarity. To familiarity. Back to familiarity.
Awkwardness. Silliness. Silence. Laughter. Chatter. Cycle. Again. Give up. Useless. Meaningless.
Rain falling. Trees. Whistle. Rustle. Tussle. Snap. Dap. Tap. Swap. Lap. Sap.
Life. Simple. Complicated. Why? Complications. Complications. Simple. Simple. Simple.
Nothing. Really. At the end. Nothing. No one. Nothing left. Nothing. Just. Simply. Nothing.



I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me
Jesus, I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me