Today is the 1st of september
Today is the day of Michelle's departure
Today is the day of my mum's return.

All those things signify the start of... things.
But I can cancel one from my mum's list now.
Wisps is gone.
I don't have to worry about whether I have to put her down.
anymore.
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It was like a trigger
I cried till all my energy was gone
And the reminders are all gone
But the guilt still remains
And I'll let it consume me
Because I know it's my fault
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I feel like ranting.
Which according to cassie. (and everyone else)
is what i do when I can't take it anymore
well. I won't do it.
I'm afraid that once I start I won't know when or where to stop.
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Now I wonder, which is better?
Feeling numbness or pain?
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Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
Won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
'Cause we are finally free tonight

I wish I could. I wish I would.