I'm home.
School really helped me I think
so thank you to caro and cyeo

But I don't know
I'm afraid
afraid of what?
I don't know.
I keep thinking
remembering
Reminiscing
regretting

there's voices in my head
there's a voice in my head
it keeps on echoing
or is it just my imagination?
Why is it that I can't shut it out?

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know what to do.
that's all I can seem to say nowadays.

I really want to hug Sonny.
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I just got off the phone with my mum
and one of the first things she talks to me about is my school work
and what i'm going to regret this and that if i don't do that and this
really. damn it all.

I know she loves me
i know she wants what's best for me
I know damn it I know
but why is it that when i put down the phone i feel like crying all over again?
why does she have that effect on me?
and the tears are NOT tears of gratefulness

damn it.