cyeo-
i love you too darling. thanks.
and didn't you know? i wanted to give you a hug after geog
but you walked out too fast
and my brain worked too slow
so, sorry. *hugs* love you friend.

i haven't told my parents either
don't intent to.
mm, you know the chalet you're planning?
think you can organise it on the day we get our report?
so we can all slip the paper under the door and run.
think we could do that?(:

caro-
you deserve your A for physics i say
we all saw how you studied(:
and it's okay to cry really but i don't think it's good to hide it all yeah?
it's just.. hmm, that way. *hugs*
don't cry to sleep either.
you'll get swollen eyes. not very nice hmm?
everyone has the right to cry. *hugs*

and you do help dear.
we i just can't stop crying i suppose.

joy-
i don't know what to say to you about art
i mean. it's your choice ultimately.
but. art is really something like.. for fun?
ok maybe not but for leisure?
and well. if taking art in a hectic life of school might kill your joy for art
then maybe.
but since you enjoy taking art lessons. then maybe.
but art is seriously time consuming.
but and you have the whole of holidays to practice(:

*hugs* don't fret so much
and don't stone so much either.
we already have someone from the stone age
don't think that you wanna join her(:
nor do we need another.
ah, and remember to do the art design shit yeah?
it's well. uh. helpful i guess. even if it's shit.

oh and a belated congrats on your lit.(:
you'll hit your A1 mark next time for sure.

cassie-
well. you don't really come here i suppose.
but just on the off chance. here's one for you.(:

you kinda left early for worship practice..
i hope you didn't get scolded.
well don't worry about art so much too yeah?
haha. your painting skill are actually really good.
you just need to learn to speed paint.

oh. and if we take sova we'll have to stay back on a seperate day.
don't really want to.. but are you taking?
but if we take sova we don't have to take the 3hr painting thing.

*hugs*
and remember to take pics for me on 1st nov can?


I love all you guys.
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it is technically thursday
so it has been abt 5 days since i last ranted
i'm surprise i lasted that long
but now i'm going to break that silence.


i really have a lot to say
for each and every subject i have things to talk whine about
and since i take 9. well 10 if you wanna count halfgeog and ss as seperate subjects
that's seriously a lot things
so i'll just skip that.
and there's marking days.
it was only 5 days.
but it was enough to let me taste what it's going to be like in the two months
aka 60+ days of holidays.
hmm. didn't you know what happened to me then?
hmm. you don't really want to know.
nothing happened. but you still don't want to know.


"you ask why to a lot of things and you wind up very unhappy indeed."

but i'm still asking why
questions keep floating as i cry.


i am just a total mess.
but i've calmed down. somehow.
i really just wanted to call someone.
but that's foolish yes? no?
if you say no then tell me bluntly
yes bluntly cause i'm totally clueless on this topic
tell me what things are worth a call.
and when can i call?


sigh.
what else can i say so that this won't be long?
nothing i suppose.

goodnight.

[edit/]

I'm screwed.

fuck it all.

and you're not helping.
screw you.screw you screw you screw you screw you screw you screw you screw you screw you.
fck you.

don't you know?i've never ever felt so useless, hopeless, helpless in my whole life.



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I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to You and You are always there

In troubled times, it's You I seek
I put You first that's all I need
I humble all I am, All to You

One way, Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One way, Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every hour and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

One way, Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One way, Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
x2

You are the Way, the Truth and the Life
We live by faith and not by sight
For You, we're living all for You
x4

One way, Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
One Way, Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for

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You are the Way, the Truth and the Life
We live by faith and not by sight
For You, we're living all for You

let me remember that.
please let me remember that.