I don't know what to say about today.
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Voices echo in my head.
A voice echoes in my head.
Is it my imagination?
Why can’t I block them out?

Failure failure failure
Losing losing losing
Dying dying dying
Echoes echo continuously.

Is it from my surroundings?
Or is it really voices in my head?
Tell it to shut up please.
Shut up. Shut up. Shut up.

The voice I recognize now,
It’s my own voice.
Screaming, whispering, sighing.
Tell it to shut up. Tell me to shut up.

All the raging emotions,
Mismatched emotions,
Boil within me.
The tempest in the tea cup.

Stop thinking damn it.
Stop remembering.
Stop regretting.
Just. Stop.

Voices hissing.
Emotions raging.
Shadows laughing.
Someone crying.

Stop. Stop. Stop.
Please.
Just.
Stop.
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I guess I really miss Sonny.
I really really really do.

And then. I really need to figure some things out.
I can't really live on like this.
Or has it been figured out for me?
So why aren't I done with it?
Am I unsatisfied by the answer?
But I don't think I want to care. anymore.
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I'm searching for answers
Cause something is not right.
I follow the signs,
I'm close to the fire.

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Make it stop.

School was actually ok initially
English. oral preperations
and now. Meera is convinced that I have a boyfriend
which I do. there's just a small... catch. ^^
lit test was horrible.
I didn't know how to answer the question.
I think I wasted 10 minutes staring at the question?
And still. I think I answered it incorrectly.
Then. e maths.
I seriously screwed it up.
Overall is going to be a fail
And I screwed a maths too
When I got back the chinese paper I really really really wanted to crush it.
I don't remembering ever having felt the urge being this strong.
And I got those headaches again.
Why though. They're getting rather annoying.

And I thought term 3 was bad.
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Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
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CIP rehersal.
I know I have a lot of work, but I couldn't remember
so I went for it anyway.
But then. No one showed up.
Not many anyway.
Sigh. Oh and do you know that the hours we're doing on sat will NOT be enough?
8-12 is only 4 hours.
So we actually need the rehersal hours.
I don't have to worry. I still have VBS.
But. The whole class is going to complain.
Rehersal rescheduled on Friday I think.
If not. We have to be there by 7 or 6 am in the morning to reherse.

Ahh wells.

I miss Sonny.
I want to hug him.
I really really really want to hug Sonny.

Life sucks.
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caro.
I don't think that I'm overworking myself.
I mean nowadays I'm skimping over my responsibilities.
responsibilities I know I have to do
but just... refuse/cannot to do.

And I think that's the 2nd time you offered?
Well. thanks. I really really appreciate it.
But.(how do I say this?) I don't know... how?
Sigh. I just don't.
I'm at loss for words. I'm sorry.
and I think you have enough on your plate right now?
wells. don't worry about me.
At the end of the day
I'll walk out of whatever sane and intact.
I mean I am still quite sane and alive now aren't I?
('Quite' because Cassie is always insisting that we Art girls are... not totally sane. (:)

*hugs*
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at the end of the day. each day
it's still my fault. and only mine

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I always said that I would make mistakes
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded

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I feel like breaking.
But
A hundred and one reasons tell me that simply I can't.

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I'm tired.