dearest caro dearest,
thanks yeah?
It's not really school... well it is part of it
it's simply bits and pieces
and I'm stressing and getting paranoid over sth I shouldn't be I guess
and I wasn't thinking of that when I said fight pain with pain
although it did cross my mind for a split second...
there are really more then one ways to pain
The whole class?
Was I really that obvious?

and I hope you yourself is alright. *hugs*

cheryl,
I'm sorry for not smiling for you today
I simply couldn't do it at that time, at that place.

Thanks guys
I'm sorry if I've been bithchy in any ways for the last few days
but I just...

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I cried today in school. I know I said that I wanted to just cry it all out and get it over with but it's really more trouble than it's worth. Ms Lau had a chat with me after it and i have to meet her agian next friday...

I'm not really the all happy happy smiley kind of person but now, I really wouldn't mind smiling and laughing. What would I give to have someone to make me smile for all my days?

I might start ranting again, but as temporarily as it is caro, i don't mind. Just the brief relief is... reliving.

I was laughing and smiling last night and I went to bed relatively happy. I thought I would be fine.

In the morning I knew it wouldn't be, it was just this feeling. *laughs* and look what happened.

I cried.

When was the last time I cried? I don't have a single recollection. I only remember in sec 1 or 2 I cried for and whole hour once. well, thank God it didn't happen this time.